Today, I’m 9 wks 2 days. As we’ve said before, we are thankful for each day of pregnancy with this sweet baby. We do not know what the future holds, but we deeply desire to hold this child in our arms, healthy and happy, towards the end of the summer! We are hoping and believing that this will happen.
I am nauseous around the clock for the most part. The foods that sound good to me are becoming less and less. My nose is so incredibly sensitive—I think everyone in my entire family reeks! I think they all have rank breath, too! HA! I am having an incredibly hard time brushing my teeth…which, of course, leads me to have rank breath, I’m sure! Oops. This morning, as I was brushing my teeth, I noticed my gums bleeding. I was happy to see this. Weird, maybe, but that is a sign that those pregnancy hormones are circulating.
I have to eat all the time to try to lessen the nausea. This also leads to eating 1-2 times during the night, most nights, too. When I wake up to pee frequently, I also realize I am nauseous, and try as I might, I cannot go back to sleep. So, I get up to get something else in my tummy to help. All this eating…I’m sure I’m gaining plenty of weight. But, I have no idea how much. I stopped weighing myself a few months before we found out we were pregnant, and I didn’t start weighing then either. So, I have no idea what I started off at, nor where I am now. There’s a lot of freedom in that, too! HA! I suppose when I start my official prenatal appointments, I’ll have to come to terms with whatever it is when I weigh in at appointments.
When I talked previously about not being completely without worry just because I have pregnancy symptoms…well, let me explain. I think most people don’t realize what a “missed miscarriage” is like. It’s called that for a reason. Your body still continues thinking it’s pregnant for sometimes weeks before it realizes the baby is no longer living. So, with Tiny, I had symptoms (nausea, vomiting, breast tenderness, frequent urination…etc) all the way up to the day that I actually discovered there was no heartbeat. And, we don’t know how long he was gone before that. Over that day that I couldn’t find the heartbeat, my symptoms went away. It was like a huge insult to me, but it also confirmed to me that things were over before even seeing on ultrasound. That night, I peed all night long, and it was not pregnancy frequency. It was my body ridding itself of extra pregnancy fluids. I lost 3 pounds OVER NIGHT! Sometimes, it really stinks to be so in-tune with your body and be educated in pregnancy. But, to this day, I’m still thankful that we found out Tiny wasn’t living before the bleeding started. I at least prepared myself (as much as is possible) for what was to come.
ANYWAY, with that being said, we ARE happy that my body is experiencing pregnancy symptoms. That means we ARE pregnant. We are thankful that God blessed us one more time with life. Whether this life joins our family earthside, we don’t know. We just know that we have another sweet Joyner baby in our family. We ssooooo hope he/she stays with us here. Lord, please!
Please continue to pray with us! (By the way, Ridley is currently up to 6 babies in his own tummy. All of them girls. All named Jake…).